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Hi.
Everyone keeps asking why there's nothing about me on my support site.
Well...that's because it is just that, a support site and not about me.
I've always had trouble writing about me but here goes.......

First off I am Transsexual not "Transgender". Personaly, I hate that term which seems to have been adopted by those who run away from anything sexual..........

Although designated male when I was born in March 1952 I've always had gender identity problems. (I later found out I posessed internal female bits and had a pituritary gland which did not recognise testosterone) Having a very dominant mother and three older sisters sort of helped push me in the female direction as well. Through school years I never joined in with the disgusting little things boys enjoyed doing and absolutely refused to play football etc. I was confused and dismayed to find I was not physically the same as the girls I played with though my breasts were obviously more developed than a male should be. Hated school, kept to myself, refused to take part in anything where people would see my body and spent most of my time practicing music (piano and guitar) or just staying home doing housework. Started going out dressed in my mums clothes at about 13-15 (and going out) instead of going to school and discovered I was more attracted to (and by) men than women. Did the mucho thing and rode a motorcycle (Triumph) but never tried to hide my female side either. People just thought I was rather strange. I still own a Harley and drive a convertable when the weather is fine.
Inevitably, not being able to conform to society's requirements I found myself on the wrong side of the law on more than one occasion. That just made me stronger and more confident as well as developing usefull contacts for later in life.
Got sick of New Zealand and its attitudes and went to live in Australia (Kings Cross of course). It was an eye opener for a dumb kiwi but I felt right at home there and had a go at everything...street worker, barperson at the infamous 'Bottoms Up Bar' and 'Venus Room', some stage work and played piano for quite a few famous people.
Nature took matters into its own hands in the late 70's when it was discovered I had testicular cancer which had also spread so far through my body it was considered 'terminal'. Surgery and 6 lots of chemotherapy at St Vincents, Sydney proved them wrong (so far). While recovering from that lot I was involved in a serious motorcycle accident which basicly performed an instant sex-change. I was not happy to be told it had to be put back if I wanted to see any of the insurance money.
As a result I suffer from depression and am officially "bi-polar" though I choose to deal with it myself and not take medication.
Traveled Asia which was fun (specially in 'drag') and returned to New Zealand a few times but things had not changed much so always ended up back in Sydney.
Finally, I returned to Auckland in early 90's and became involved in support work with the Auckland Pride Centre. There was no information available for Transgender in Auckland at the time so started a website with local information.(originally on Geocities).
I made submissions to the prison reform committee and hopefully made some impression on them which will lead to a few changes in the rules and recently helped several people make submisions to the Human Rights Enquiry.
Unfortunately these days I am finally having to admit that I am too old for the non-stop partying and running around town in mini skirts ect (hey...if you've got it..why not) so have had to slow down a little.
On the plus side though, I have a sense of humour and my fem personality makes people forget what I am and anyway, even at more than half a century old, I'm still having fun with being proudly transsexual and have been since before most people reading this were even born.

Whether I am "pre op" or "post op" is nobadys damn business and I am totaly not amused by some among us who have to declare to the world that they are "post op" but then still act like men. (this goes especially for the ones who hit on either my partner or me)
Likewise....I am not too impressed by men who, after taking all the rights and privileges afforded a man throughout their life, decide once the testosterone has run out that they now want to be a woman....now, instantly, regardless of the dammage it does to friends and family. Then, having done so with typical male determination, still demand all the rights and privileges of a man plus those of a woman.....
I still help where I can but it makes me wonder if perhaps it is just too easy these days............

I spent many years fighting for my right to live my life and use my body as I wish and will not be told how to live by the so called "normal" people nor by the "trans" community either.


I have a wonderful partner, Shelina (also TS) to share life with. (almost 5 years now).
We both work in the hospitality industry, are definately "out there" living our lives without any problems or signs of discrimination apart from that which any woman would encounter.(that is part of life as a female, get over it and get on with it)
Despite recent attacks on us and treachery from within our own community we are still happy to talk to anyone, have a coffee and chat.

Please note though, we are not interested in anything more than friendship.